For your heart only...

It's terrible living here alone, without you by my side.
I hope you understand. And care.

I miss you, every single moment I spend here.
I hope you understand. And care.

Receding lines ...

"The closer I get, the more elusive you become.
The further you go, the clearer you become."

- 'Antaheen', 2009

Will I be soon crying at my own fate?! I don't know. I really don't know.

'......'

No words.

This is her. And this is me.

She cried when we spoke over the phone after our first fight.
She cried the first time we hugged.
She cried when I called her from the airport when I was leaving the country.
She cried when I first called her from London.
She cried the first time we did video chat over Skype.
Yesterday she cried when she saw me for the first time this month after she was back from hospital.
In fact, she cried each time I said anything good about her. Or, bad. Or sometimes, even just when I spoke.

Even though I hate to see her crying. Can I ever get to stop her from her outbursts? And can I even doing anything about it other than sheepishly and helplessly looking at her? This is her. And this is me. Do we need a reason why we love each other so much?

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On fights and more.

Why do we really fight in a relationship? Is it because certain qualities of your partner irritate you? No. Because those are the ones that you fell for in the first place. Plain and simple. You can never hate them. You cease to have any more interest in them if those little imperfections disappear. Your imperfectly perfect partner would be boring.

Nobody is perfect. Everyone has their own share of imperfections. And when these imperfections complement each other, there is magic. That’s heavenly. That’s love.

For a relation to progress, it needs its own ups and downs. You try correcting. You give up. You fight. You sulk. And then, you realise your mistake. You apologize. No questions asked. No answers given. Not because either of you is wrong - but as they say, saying sorry relieves your soul. You thank God that you are imperfectly perfect together. You find yourself even more attached to each other. More than ever before.

Fights are actually little blessings. In a sound relationship, that is.

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On experiences.

I am glad for all my experiences in life so far. Sometimes I feel, if they hadn't been in and out of my life the way they have, would I ever appreciate what I have now.

Because of them I know how special and important you are to me. Someone once said, ‘There is a lot of beauty out there, which is true. But then what's more 'true' is the fact that when I look at you after looking at them, I find you even more beautiful!

Invaluable.

Now-a-days, I don’t even lament why I didn't meet you before. Not even a spare thought. But just be thankful to have you in my life. Every single day I find myself falling in love with you all over again. Even more. And much deeper. You are the only soul I have in this world who can love me like I want to be loved.

Don't give up. Not now, at least.

Please don't loose hope at this point.
Please hang in there for me.
Please don't give up.

Remember, I love you more than anything else.
And much more than you think I do.

Please get well soon.