Philosophy. Of life.

I love. Therefore, I live.

2010.

2010. All set to make me an year older. I am already 30. Going on... (I DO NOT wish to go on to be) 31! An absolute and strict NO!!

I am going to hate every birthday of mine from now.
I don't want to grow old.

Wisdom. To live by.

To...
- laugh often and love much;
- win the respect of intelligent persons and the affection of children;
- earn the approbation of honest citizens and endure the betrayal of false friends;
- appreciate beauty;
- find the best in others;
- give of one's self;
- leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
- have played and laughed with enthusiasm and sung with exultation;
- know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived...

...this is to have succeeded.

~Ralph Waldo Emerson

London

Dark. And wet. And cold. And pale white. And boring. And absolutely unromantic.

That's how it is, I guess.

Right now, I am clueless. And my life makes no sense at all. Absolutely none. But nevertheless, I have a strange hope that I am on the right track.

Love. And it all make sense again.

Parting.

He was saying something seriously. She couldn't understand anything.

‘What?! Are you...?’, pulling at a lone strand of hair that hit her face. In the wind she was having a hard time keeping her from covering her face, as they sat on the beach. “Yes, I have to go. But I will come back", he said looking at her. She looked at him and asked, ‘But...’ but stopped midway.

‘Mole...’, he said, looking at her followed it with a long pause. Neither could he complete it. He kept on staring at her instead. She couldn’t hold his gaze for long. She looked away. And after a while he looked away too.

For a very long time they sat silent, listening to wind, watching the waves.

‘Come, let’s go the other side’, he broke the silence. They got up and walked along the shore. The waves touched their feet.

‘Mole, look... a crab...’ He bent down and picked it up and put it on her palm. As the little creature crawled on her she felt ticklish. She smiled. ‘Don’t look at me like that’, she said, smiling a little more.

Ani. My friend, my little brother.

Ani. My little brother. There used to be a time when he would run toward me every time he was caught in the midst of - so to say - trouble and hold me against it all like a shield.

There used to be a time when we used to run all the way to school after missing the school bus, with me carrying both our schoolbags. There used to be a time when he used to look up to me like I was his role model, telling me all that happened and was happening in his life, confessing and confiding in me. Sharing with me. And sometimes, fighting with me. But almost always, caring. Yet, don't know when, where, how, and most importantly, why, I lost him.

It's almost two years since. Ever since I miss my once very dear friend, my little brother. Almost every single day.

Trust

Read somewhere, ‘The honesty of a judge is like the virginity of a traditional Indian unmarried girl. If it is questioned, the doubt can never be laid to rest.’

Till it’s there, it’s there. When it’s gone, it’s gone forever.

Maybe. Or, maybe not.

A storm, that stuck me...

You are the beginning of a new era in my life.

My life itself has been divided into the lfe after and before I met you. And that's how important you are to me.

All that happened before seem to be for a purpose now. I no longer want to go back in time and change things. I am happy for the way things are. You are now to me an even bigger dream than all my dreams put together.

I need you. I need you. I need you. Now and forever.

Please don't let me down this time God.

We. Us. Ours.

Ever thine
Ever mine
Ever ours...

On love. And sorry.

Agreed that love means never having to say you are sorry.
But then saying sorry makes you feel less sorry of having hurt someone you love.

Of being special...

Every single day we grow more and more in love. And every single thing I share in every single moment I spent with you, adds up to the countless little things that makes you special to me, making you even more special.

yours always, lovingly..

My princess, you are the most precious one to me in the whole world. Right now. And ever after.

You never stop surprising me. Love you so much.

Ek Din Aap - Yes Boss

Ek Din Aap Yoon Humko Mil Jayenge
Phool Hi Phool Raahon Mein Khil Jayenge
Maine Socha Na Tha
Ek Din Aap Yoon Humko Mil Jayenge
Phool Hi Phool Raahon Mein Khil Jayenge
Maine Socha Na Tha

Ek Din Zindagi Itni Hogi Haseen
Jhoomega Aasmaan Gaayegi Ye Zameen
Ek Din Zindagi Itni Hogi Haseen
Jhoomega Aasmaan Gaayegi Ye Zameen
Maine Socha Na Tha

Dil Ki Daali Pe Kaliyaan Si Khilne Lagin
Jab Nigaahein Nigaahon Se Milne Lagin
Dil Ki Daali Pe Kaliyaan Si Khilne Lagin
Jab Nigaahein Nigaahon Se Milne Lagin
Ek Din Is Tarah Hosh Kho Jayenge
Paas Aaye To Madhosh Ho Jayenge
Maine Socha Na Tha

Ek Din Aap Yoon Humko Mil Jayenge
Phool Hi Phool Raahon Mein Khil Jayenge
Maine Socha Na Tha

Jagamagati Hui Jaagti Raat Hai
Raat Hai Ya Sitaaron Ki Barsaat Hai
Jagamagati Hui Jaagti Raat Hai
Raat Hai Ya Sitaaron Ki Barsaat Hai
Ek Din Dil Ki Raahon Mein Apne Liye
Jal Uthenge Mohabbat Ke Itne Diye
Maine Socha Na Tha

Ek Din Zindagi Itni Hogi Haseen
Jhoomega Aasmaan Gaayegi Ye Zameen
Maine Socha Na Tha

Ek Din Aap Yoon Humko Mil Jayenge
Phool Hi Phool Raahon Mein Khil Jayenge
Maine Socha Na Tha

Maine Socha Na Tha
Maine Socha Na Tha

Mind works of a goat!!!

Manor Park. East Ham. Purfleet. East Ham. Illford. Warwick. Tooting. Stratford. That's how many addresses I've changed between July 2008 & July 2009. Gosh!! Am I ever going to add a little stability to my life?!

(Well, I had to change two more times after Stratford within East Ham itself to settle down at 27 Lawrence Road for a very long time from November 2009 to March 2011 to be precise.)

Delicious Scamsters

Warning
Some very good advice…

Me, yes me scammed – of all people. Here’s what happened.

I became a victim of a clever Lebanese scam while out shopping. Simply dropping into City Centre Mall at the Corniche has turned out to be quite traumatic. Don't be naive enough to think it couldn't happen to you or one of your friends.

Here's how the scam works: Two seriously good-looking voluptuous 20-21 year-old girls come over to your car as you are packing your shopping into the boot. They both start cleaning your windscreen. Their large firm young assets almost falling out of their skimpy T-shirts. It's impossible not to look.

When you thank them and offer them a tip, they'll say 'No' and instead ask you for a lift to another store, in my case, LandMark Mall at Gharaffa. You agree, and they both get in the back seat. On the way, (They suggest you take all the smaller lanes in Doha to reach LandMark, to make the journey more enjoyable). And then they start undressing, and both get completely naked. Then, when you pull over to remonstrate, one of them climbs over into the front seat and starts crawling all over your lap, kissing you, touching you intimately, and thrusting herself against you, while the other one steals your wallet!

I had my wallet stolen March 4th, 9th, 10th, twice on the 15th, 17th, 20th, 24th, and 29th. Also April 1st, 4th, twice on the 6th, 7 times in the Month of May, three times last Saturday and very likely again this coming weekend.

So Be Warned!

P.S. Lulu Hypermarket have wallets on sale for QR. 150.00 each. Best buys are Rameez Shopping Centre or Sofitel at National Area, where they are available for QR. 20/- onwards.

(This is what my dear friend from Doha had to say about his experience in Doha early this summer. And I am guessing, he is still getting scammed almost every other day. BTW for those who are ignorant about the money value 1 QR = 10 INR appox. And 1GBP = 80 INR appox. So 1 QR must be about 1/8th of a GBP appox which should obviously mean 1 GBP = 8 QR. So as you also may note my inefficient calculations, please get yourself on the internet and find yourself a currency calculator to take an estimate of how much it would be to get yourself scammed in similar manner.) ABV.: QR is Qatar Riyal. INR is Indian Rupee. GBP is Great Britian Pound.

“Life is what happens to you while you are busy making other plans.”

True. Very true.

Why do I think a lot?

Fools and fanatics are always certain of themselves, but wiser people are full of doubts.

Secret. Of Success.

Earlier, I only stared at the girls. And just thought. But now, I stare and talk what I think. And guess what?! I have started ‘getting’ as well!

Ever After. Truly.

I am sure this marriage will work, at least for as long as we remain married, for the simple reason that she’s even more in love with me than I am with her. Truly, a potential happily ever after.